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give up loving you would be the greatest regret in my life; and i dont wanna have this regret .

one last call for alcohol 1:24:00 PM

open up your eyes, then youll realise.
here i stand wit my, everlasting love.
need you by my side.
girl, to be my pride.
never be denied, everlasting love.

you're the one.

one last call for alcohol 7:09:00 PM

i dreamt of you. people say, when you dream of the person over and over again, thats what your heart is longing for. i believe so. i miss you so much.

the dream. i wish i never have to wake up from that dream. it seemed so real. but yet when i woke up, you were gone.

how silly was i, to sit there and drop a tear when i know it isnt real.

to change who i used to be, a reason to start over new. and the reason is you.

one last call for alcohol 1:37:00 PM

baby, i love you and ill never let you go.
but if i have to, boy i think that you should know.
all the love we made, can never be erased.
and i promise you that you will never be replaced.

i love you, yes i do.
ill be wit you as long as you want me to.
until, the end, of time.

from the day i met you, i knew we would be together.
and now i know i wanna be wit you forever.
i wanna marry you, and i wanna have your kids
thinking can never compare to the feeling of your kisses.
i can say im truly happy to this day.
you make me thank god that i live my life everyday.
theres never been a doubt, in my mind, that i regret ever having you by my side.
but if the day comes that i have to let you go.
i think theres something i should probably let you know.
enjoyed everyday, that i spent wit you.
and i will miss you cos im happy that i had you at all.

do you remember this?

i meant it, when i sang it to you. tho its not as sweet as the original one. but yes, i meant it from the bottom of my heart.

`you will never be replaced.

why did you leave me to stray?

one last call for alcohol 2:16:00 PM

i had orange lollipop today and i remembered you hated orange flavour. it popped from a random machine when i inserted 50cents.

and i wonder if you still feel for me.

`i miss you, really.

one last call for alcohol 1:24:00 AM

i dare not call myself ol' li'l forsaken princess. im no princess without you. im not lively, not cheerful, not bouncy, not at all happy without you.

now you know your importance?

you cant be compared wit anyone. i cant witness your smiles, neither can i hear the sound of your laughters. all i can do is, picture your face in my head. your smiles, your laughs, your everything.

sorry bout my dumbness that caused cockroaches. your words hurt me.

one last call for alcohol 6:47:00 PM

dooms day is coming in two days time.

*i miss you, so very badly.

anyway went out wit miko today. kinda have fun. talk alot of crap and all. and joe, joshua busted. thank you. end of speech.

*i want you, all tatooed, i want you BAD, BAD, BAD, BAD, BAD!!

IF YOU COULD ONLY READ MY MIND, YOU WOULD KNOW THAT IVE BEEN WAITING, SO LONG.

one last call for alcohol 9:58:00 PM

its like exceptionally quiet at home and i feel so bored.

y'know the lava lamp, theres the wax. when i just on it, the wax floats up in a line. then suddenly after much heating, the whole thing collapse down. yea now im slowly going up, and soon ill collapse down like this too.

feel so lonely when youre not around. and i miss you so much now. i tried to be strong, but no matter how strong im, i just cant brush you off my thoughts and i believe its the love thats in between. i <3 you.

one last call for alcohol 11:44:00 PM

i dreamt bout him. oh well, just roughly bout us and family :( okay well, boring day. got busted by davin. supposed to go play guitar but he backed out the last min saying hes not in the mood. hmm i guess ill be staying home today unless ive made up my mind to go dye my hair. dyed it so many fucking times and the colour didnt come out. the last colour, he dyed it for me. uh dark purple. the colour didnt come out either. i think have to bleach. no idea. sigh :( like miss him alot. but dontknow how to say it either. like wherever i go, there are certain things which reminds me of him. its not a bad thing, those are sweet memories. and i kinda missed it like so much. nothing can make me give it up.

anyway, joes back today. he smsed me like early 6am. haha.

joshua, jere, their couz, went to stadium to watch soccer match. saleh and his friends too. how fun!

anyway i got my 250 bucks bursary. i love the fsas cap i saw and i wanna get it for him since like that time. but i dontknow. maybe some other time. arg, i dont know. if joshua doesnt sms me, then i guess im stuck at home. if not then, we will be going to play pool. how come im feeling so troubled. joshua ask me kill myself to solve my problem. nice one, josh. so i asked him to kill me. and he says okay, the next time he see me. haha.

i miss you, so very much. am here, just right here.

one last call for alcohol 4:58:00 PM

FEEL LIKE FUCK.

I GOT SACKED FROM MY JOB. LIKE SO FUCKED RIGHT. MY FAULT FOR WAKING UP LATE BUT I ALREADY CALLED TO INFORM. FUCKIT. ANNA CAN GO SUCK ON SOME BALLS.

FUCK IT.

one last call for alcohol 2:40:00 AM

woah. last night was a wreck. thanks to davin. hhahaa keep wanting to drink. so we drank uh e33. i think theres a sales outside 7-11 so davin and saleh bought. but saleh dont drink. so like he bought for me. haha FREE. k thnx. then after that we were thinking bout walking home, already 3plus. but i wasnt feeling good so i tell them to take a bus. continues walking, and we saw another 7-11. and davin still wants to drink. so we went in, and saleh bought for us, raspberry vodka and fx premium, something like that, im not sure. haha. i took the raspberry one as its more like sweeter and no alcohol taste. not even half of the bottle i finish, davin finished his. i was too bloated to go on, so i gave mine to davin. and he finished all, grumbling that hes giddy and all. haha so we walked to peace centre to take 65M but the damn bus was so crowded that it wouldnt stop for us. and the next bus was like 20mins more. so we slacked at the bus stop. its a total wreck. i went beside the phone booth and puked. haha the caucasians walked past and they say HAPPY NEW YEAR. okay, thanks alot. haha. so we took 65M. the bus was so bulky and bumpy that when i got off the bus, i puked the second round. then davin keep making fun. haha thanks.

well, before this, we met at weelee. davin went jamming wit diwal and all i think. and me and diwal has got the same shoes. haha coincidental. oo we keep slacking at town and they both complained that it was boring and shit. we meet up wit yuting, her bro, suchiang at PS. then we took a train to city hall and walked to suntec. man, do you know how far it is! haha leg was cramped. we wanted to stay at suntec to catch a movie then, but yuting didnt want so we went separate ways. we wanted to watch meet the fockers at 1145, then we would miss the countdown, but god didnt want us to miss it so the seats were like full and we had no other choice but to watch kung fu hustle which is at 1230, after countdown. haha. so since it was like still 11, i called maine to ask where she was. and she asked us to go down to fullerton where gabe, azly, xavier were. so we took a cab there, and davin paid. haha there was the countdown there. so crowded and noisy. haha so me and saleh were like, EH LETS SET OUR HP TIME RIGHT. haha people go there for countdown but we went there to set our hp times. hahahahaa. so like yea, we had 10secs of fun. actually weve decided to give the movie a miss and forfeit our money. but eventually we took a cab back there and saleh paid. HAHAA im a free loader. so sorry,guys.

haha while we were at fullerton, i kept disturbing gabe that maine is my gf. then hes like HEY DONT YOU TOUCH MY GF. hahahahahaha. how sweet :( okay uh, so yea new year was passed that way and like heard dave was drunk. cos davin called to see if he can go to his house as he got nowhere to go and uh willem told me as well. new year, new resolutions. whats yours?

oh yea, just to add on, i didnt turn up for work today. couldnt get up. haha.

`i love you.
`i miss you.

`i really do.

one last call for alcohol 2:36:00 PM