sighs. sick again. ive been taking care of myself whats. how come im sick again. dammit. i missed school today, didnt attend it cos i woke up wit a fucking headache and yea my flu aint gone yet. tsk plus im having cough. wtf right. sighs, why is this happening to me? im so bothered. this morning i woke up and decided not to go school cos aint feeling really well then slept til now. i woke wit a bleeding heart again. i want this feeling to stop coming to me. but how can i? i really want this to stop tho i still love him and i miss him very much. i want the terrible feeling to stop. im controlling myself not to have that feeling. but when i wake up, open my eyes, that feeling just come to me. its killing me. seriously, it is. i hope to get well soon. i dont wanna miss another day in school cos its dreadful being at home. right now, my life, is a torture. am i going thru some test? what am i going thru now? will i gain happiness after ive gone thru these? im in the stage of depression now. now, who can cure it? i guess its only him. i miss him.
