he bought panadols for cold relief for me. thanks alot even tho he wouldnt know. sighs. im feeling much better than just now. wanted him to stay to accompany me but he rejected :( well, went down, bought a pizza bread. munched it on the way back. thought bout all the times we went to the confectionery together. just now when he came, he let out a gentle smile. sort of melted my heart, made me felt better. tmr i guess im going to raffles to relax myself as well as do some sketching? im not very sure tho, but i'll be going. will he like pop out there out of a sudden and surprise me? i guess not. i think he still cares. feel like telling him, 'i really love you so much..' but i dont have the courage to. afraid of being turned down again. hope he liked the bread this morning. theres no stars tonight. its breezy out there. to me, its like freezing, without the warmth of his hugs. i didnt see the moon either. wheres the moon. where are the stars. please bless me. bless him as well. miracles, please happen. well, i miss him very much. god, please let him know that i miss him and that... and that.. i love him, so much, so much. YOURE MY DAVENOY, MY ONLY DAVENOY. YOU MAKE ME HAPPY, WHEN SKIES ARE GREY. YOU NEVER KNOW DEAR. HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. PLEASE DONT TAKE MY DAVENOY AWAY. PLEASE DONT TAKE MY DAVENOY AWAY.
I'm not a perfect person as many things I wish I didn't do. But I continue learning. I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go, that I just want you to know.
I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new. And the reason is you.
I'm sorry that I hurt you. It's something I must live with everyday. And all the pain I put you through, I wish that I could take it all away, and be the one who catches all your tears. That's why I need you to hear.
I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new,
and the reason is you.
And the reason is you.
And the reason is you.
And the reason is you.
I'm not a perfect person, I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go, that I just want you to know.
I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new. And the reason is you.
I've found a reason to show, a side of me you didn't know. A reason for all that I do, and the reason is you.
yuting says that ive changed too. when im wit bishal and when im wit dave, theres two drastic changes. for the better of cos. thats what she said. maybe a bystander can see more things than me myself. sighs. its coming to bedtime soon. i'll prolly sleep early. everynight, i hope for sms. but it never comes. does he hates me? sighs. alright, im gonna turn in early. cos i aint stubborn anymore and i must take care of myself. i just told him that i miss him. nevertheless, dave, YOURE THE ONE! -still yours to take- i miss him bah. tho i met him just now, i STILL miss him. everynight i lie on my bed, my eyes never failed to turn watery thru many thoughts. i love him. tonight im just gonna sleep wit the windows open. hope to recieve a call from him somehow. be it just one 'good night', at least i can sleep wit my mind eased.
Mr. Parody [I'm all in for the sick parodies, fuck amiright.com for not getting my shit up!] says:
uh k.
:< -charsiewlovesdavenoy
