sigh. youll never learn to treasure something till its gone. id treasure him when i was wit him. but i didnt know how to handle it well. now that ive know, i think i wont get the chance again. im upset. im heartbroken. im everything related to sadness. i tried hard to pull myself together. seriously id, but to no avail. rubenas was right. sighs actually wanted to go toapayoh to get my revision books but no ones free to go wit me so well, prolly go tmr then. i dont know what i should do. ive already planned out my study schedule wit yuting. will things i study really get into my damn brain? i dont see pleasure in anything. its not the end of the world. its not that i cant live without him but i just have this feeling in me, telling me, go, go get your chance. ive failed so many times. how many times must i ask? wont it be hurting myself further? prelims coming in another 7 weeks. and tmr my prelims english oral.
BUCK UP SIMIN! maybe tmr will be a better day, but definitely not today. i miss him so muchh. so damn fucking muchhhh. i didnt drink, not even once after weve broke up. but smoked tho. stopped smoking already also. yea it only bring the terrible feelings in me away for a couple of seconds. sighs
i miss him very much.
