i think im so silly. im just so. i wrote something. drew and wrote a fairytale of enkil and charsiew. silly, aint i? well i dont know why! i saw papers so i took them from my friend and drew/wrote those. i guess hes gonna dislike it? nevertheless, i left it in his letterbox. i didnt dare to when i was still drawing it but i decided that i should be brave. hmm. suddenly i remembered that in the past when he used to smoke, he do some dragon sort of thingy wit the smoke in his mouth. now i think bout it, its kinda cute. but sigh, havent seen him for days. dont think he wishes to see me either. miss him, really miss him. hes my prince. im living in a fairytale world. yea i know i shouldnt be but hes just TOO perfect tho he always says hes not good and all but well, to me, hes everything. i guess im the one not good. cos im stubborn. i dont listen to advices which led to all these. see, come to think, its my fault afterall. sigh, all i want is prolly a chance to show that i WILL be a better girlfriend. dont know if the chance will be granted. ive this feeling, im feeling very afraid. my heart is thumping very fast. i wonder why too. gonna nap i guess. hope tmr will be a better day. im drowned in my thoughts again. dave, where areeeee yooouuu?
