well i went to buy my books. bought 2 pocket study guide for physics and chemistry individually. hmm and a combined science topical o level guide as well. wow cost me 20 over bucks. woww! im left wit emaths book guide havent buy. hmm. well, i told him how i felt today. bout all sorts of things. i know thats alot of nonsense la. but its really how im feeling. im just telling everything to him. i wonder why. he might prolly thinks that im a bother. but i mean every single thing ive said. hes a happy man wit lots of freedom and hes afraid to lose it. we spent almost so much time wit each other that weve neglected so much of our friends. of cos, now that he has got so much of his friends back, he wouldnt wanna lose it again. same applies to me. but well, im missing him at the same time while enjoying wit my friends. enjoying is one, the missing is another. its kinda like, its something deep in my heart that couldnt be erased off at all. today, madam prema asked, how come we could remember a-z by heart and know how to form words and sentences? becos its all carved and left a deep impression in our hearts since young. she also said, if a thing means alot to you and youve gone thru it such that it leaves you an impression, youll always remember it in your heart till the day you die. thats how the human mind works. well i guess shes right. and while she was talking bout this, i remembered so much things bout us, y'know all the sweet memories. yes shes very right. they all carved a deep mark in my heart. yes, prolly till the day i die. its something important and worth remembering. tSk i miss him, yea so much, so alot. but does he know? i dont think so. well, being happy, single and have lots of freedom. i do know of people in a relationship who can be happy and enjoy lots of freedom as well. when theyre out wit their friends, they do feel free and like theyre single. as in,urgh i dont know how to explain either but well im more matured. im no longer like,
hey, my bf must accompany me 24/7 and cannot have time wit his friends. this kinda thinking is very childish and immature. ive learnt from these mistakes that i made. its good to be matured in thinking cos itd help alot in future endeavours. sighh i know i aint any princess. but im waiting for my prince. my
prince enkil. im emo, so im saying this:
i love him so deeply :< -am still waiting-
